Lately words have failed me.  So I thought I’d post a little montage of the pictures that have been in my mind over the last week.  This represents the goings on over a two-day period – the day before and the day of - the wedding.  Right now, K and S are in Las Vegas enjoying laying out by the pool and destressing from the prior weeks.  I know Kris has told us she’s so glad it’s all over.  The wedding was a lot of fun, but it did take a lot of planning and a lot of work on Kris and Sonny’s part – and the part of a lot of others, not the least of which was DH.  I’ve never seen anyone work as hard as he did to get our home up to a visit from relatives! The best part was the team of people who came in and did the heavy duty cleaning neither of us had the time to do – even with a week off from work. 

Anyway, it was a boiling hot day – and so humid, that my reading glasses steamed up when I stepped outside to take a few photographs.  Even the lens on my camera steamed up – hence the somewhat foggy view of Kris with her Gavigan/Lefkowitz bridesmaids and flower girls at the house.

My poor Dad had a tough time, with the heat and lack of sleep, but he rallied and it was sooo good to see him and Maureen.  Six of John’s seven surviving sibs came, along with spouses – and when his SIL Jackie arrived, I knew the party had STARTED!!!

John had the foresight to get a bus for everyone to get from the reception place to the wedding down in Adelphi – an air-conditioned bus, a handicapped accessible bus! JoAnna went early to Panera and bought sandwiches (she also prepped them) along with coffee and danish for the morning crowd.  John and Donald put together three coolers with snacks and soda and water and….well, special water for whoever had the desire and was not in a recovery program (JUST KIDDING).  Thus armed, we made our way to the wedding.

The ceremony was delightful, me joyfully striding down the aisle on the arm of our son, D, and DH barely holding back the tears as he walked K down the aisle (not enough room for us both to do it, unfortunately – but that’s oK, I had flower girl duties – as in bribing them with cheerios to keep them quiet once seated  – in the meantime).

It took a few minutes for the couple to realize we had not been told to be seated, which made us all laugh – we weren’t even paying attention, either, LOL!  The ceremony was quick, with fairly traditional vows exchanged and a reading from 1 Cor 13 – my favorite:) Then a receiving line and pictures.

Then the long drive back to the reception which was a lot of fun.  K and S danced to something I didn’t recognize, but it was sweet.  DH and K danced to “Landslide” (Stevie Nicks), S and his mom danced to “Sunrise, Sunset”(Fiddler on the Roof), and John and I danced to “Never My Love” (Association) – the song we danced to at our wedding.

The bride and groom asked people to tell them their favorite song in their responses to the wedding invitation.  They got what they could find and downloaded the music, then played it at the reception.  It was really cool.

The high point of the evening musically for me was getting up and dancing with my kids, my sisters-in-law, granddaughters, and all the other women in the family, singing “We are Family” by Sister Sledge – and also “Don’t stop Believing” by Journey – apparently my kids’ favorite karaoke song (they didn’t know it was also mine and about lost their respective lunches – heh heh heh…).

And in the middle of all the hubbub, I heard “Will You Still Love Me When I’m 64″ (Beatles) and couldn’t help but wonder if Mrs. S. sent that one in…..:)

Later that evening, we had a little get together with John’s sibs and my dad and stepmom back at the house. We all crashed along with the thunder and lightening of the storm that finally invaded after the festivities were over. It was a glorious day.

The next morning I had bells and choir (bells and yells?).  Normally, I would have missed if Nancy could have substituted someone for me, but this was her 20th anniversary at SJEC and there was no way I was missing that! She was well and truly surprised and now I can say that the choir was practicing secretly at SJEC when she was on vacation at the end of May and at St. Peter’s down the street, thanks to Tom H., their organist.  It was Tom who also did the postlude at the two morning services so Nancy could meet and greet after the service.  The funny part was trying to figure out how to get her DH there without tipping him off. Tom’s wife, Donna called him on some pretext or other, but got him there.

The choir sang O Nata Lux, conducted by Barry.  She seemed pleased.  I wouldn’t have missed that for anything.:)

Afterwards, I slipped over to Baltimore and joined the rest of the family at brunch, drove Dad and Maureen to the train station and then home. 

Monday was a day off from work and boy did I need it.  Tuesday was catching up on paperwork and today I got ready for court.  The weather finally cooled down to the 80s and I HAD TO TURN DOWN A WALK – a much needed walk – WITH NANCY! DAMN~ I was just too far behind at work.

However, tomorrow I have court and then rehearsal at the Baltimore Cathedral for the new Bishop’s consecration at the end of the month.  That will be fun.

Oh, and another funny thing: I’m the substitute drummer for the musicians supporting the Bethesda Little Theater’s broadway review. Danny has let me borrow his drums.  I’d better not lose so much as a bolt. But What a hoot!!! It’s exhausting dragging the drums around, but it is fun! And I didn’t do too badly:)  Well, not that badly… well, they didn’t fire me, LOL!

Well, I’m going to go have some dinner.  It’s got to be low-carb because my butt has gotten huge with virtually giving up this winter and then the wedding and pre-wedding eating and drinking.  So far, I’ve been behaving this week.  But I’ve got a lot of catching up to do there also. 

Ah well, such is life!

+

Wow – pretty soon I am going to have to re-name this blog “FugueState” and forget the knits altogether. I think I got about 2 rows done on Sabrina’s scarf. Not a lot, but then I am recuperating from last weekend and getting ready for this one. Normally I do my silly to-do list online on Wednesdays when I am preparing for a full day of court. Today, I have a lot to do and want to set my goals down.

Obviously I have to clean, but first, I have to get my laptop back in shape and my desk area cleared (work before pleasure (!??)).

11-12:30

Clean up desk area

Reformat hard drive on laptop (dammit!) or maybe not? 11-12:30

12:30-2:30

Clean downstairs bathroom

Dust (hey, mind as well make some more!)

Clean up kitchen

Sweep kitchen floor

Clean upstairs hall bathroom

Change sheets on JoAnna’s bed

Clean up JoAnna’s room (GRRRRRR)(Can you tell Vicki’s staying there?)

Catch up on wash(AS IF!!)

2:30-3:00

Take a shower, etc.

Get dressed

3:00-3:30

Type note to Vick, with key

Tape envelope to front door (never said I was smart)

Get ready for retreat (oh yeah, did I tell you, EFM retreat is tonight until 10, and Vicki gets here at about 7:30 – nice friend, am I not?)

Will need to bring:

$12

CD Player

CD of Hildegard von Bingen or something similar

Staples “Easy” Button

Bible

BCP (bring second cc for Bruce)

3:30 Leave for retreat (get money out of bank for tomorrow?)

10:00 Leave retreat for home

10:30 Home, reconnect with old friend, plan on tomorrow’s festivities.

I am really looking forward to what I believe to be a momentous event in sacred history and look forward to the day that it won’t be considered all that big a deal. It will be nice to have Vick come to our St. John’s Sunday (she is employed by another St. John’s in CT).

It will also be fun to sing the Byrd. At choir praxis last night, it really sounded like it’s coming together well.

As for that other situation, who knows? I have decided that (1) my perceptions tend to be correct and though I tend to second-guess myself and/or situations, I am correct in this one, but (2) people have their own motivations for what they do and I need to be more charitable. After all, the people involved are people I deeply care about and truly caring/loving means not necessarily getting the same back, although that would be nice from time to time. What I think bothers me the most is the crazymaking stuff. Maybe it’s the lawyer in me, but whenever I have a problem, I usually just deal with it by putting it on the table, talking about it, dealing with it – or making a conscious decision not to deal with it – and moving on. I hate, absolutely hate, not talking about things. And this is one of those situations where it’s difficult to even discuss because I’m dealing with behaviors, looks, innuendos, and one comment from a person who is on the periphery. Not a lot to go on and impossible to raise to the level of a serious discussion without sounding like I’m having a psychotic break. Rest assured, I am not. Sometimes I wish I were, LOL!

+

“Monday, September 25, 2006
Jim Wallis: There he goes again – this time Rev. Falwell compares Sen. Clinton to Lucifer
The nation is weary of the vitriolic and divisive political rhetoric that still comes from some on the Religious Right. In particular, the country is tired, truly tired, of Rev. Jerry Falwell. At the Religious Right’s Values Voter Summit, Rev. Falwell said that Hillary Clinton’s run for the presidency would energize the Right’s base more than Lucifer. This is also the man who said the terrorist attacks on 9/11 were God’s judgment on America and he specifically blamed feminists, homosexuals and the ACLU. Agreement or disagreement with Senator Clinton’s politics is not the issue. Personally demonizing public figures is the issue. Such political poison isn’t just bad for the Body Politic and the more civil discourse we so desperately need. It also simply isn’t Christian.?

Can I just vent a little here?

YES!!!!!!!!

Ahhhh That’s better…. Thank you.

We are all brothers and sisters, if not in the same faith, then in the same world. All but the most recalcitrant who have embraced evil as a way of life deserve respect. I do not appreciate, nor do I have any particular fondness for G Bush, but he is a human being and our President. He deserves the respect any human being would deserve. Unles he is one of the recalcitrant who have embraced evil as a way of life – but I seriously doubt that, secret prisons and sexual torture of enemy combatants notwithstanding.

OK, so this is the “State” part of FugueStateKnits. OH well.

+

Things are easing up just a wee little bit at work. Nice, but you’d hardly know it the ways things have been. Kelly is back on the job on Mondays and I appreciate that. I still have to worry about the balance of the cases, but I can live with that. It just seems that the clients have so many needs lately – again, I can live with that, too, just very very time-consuming. But that’s why they pay me the big bucks, LOL:)

Have been considering going back to school for the psychology, but wonder what my motivation is – something new to try to avoid the hard questions my job poses on a regular basis? I better really really think this thing through before putting our finances into yet another tailspin – assuming that will be the case. On another level, I may not get into grad school anyway. However, assuming I could get into the PhD program, it would truly be awesome to study psych – although my nearest and dearest would probably say I needed the therapy more than any potential patients would:)And really, as long as my kids are still in college, I don’t feel I have the right to financially burden the family with tuition or more student loans when my kids are working their respective ways through college.

On a different but related topic, I need to make a decision NOW about whether to take the EFM course. It’s a course for laypersons to learn theology. It costs $340.00 at a time when we are barely making our bills. I asked God to help me with an answer while I sleep tonight, because I cannot take that pressure any more. Objectively, it doesn’t seem right, but you just never know about these things. If I don’t have any major flashes of insight, I’m calling Su and letting her know I’m out for this year at least. Better that than get involved and then having the electricity turned off or worse! Still have to go tomorrow night because I volunteered to bring the food.

Right now I am having that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that has been plaguing me a lot lately. I don’t know if it’s related to work, family or just my own neuroses. I find myself wondering if the kids, the grandkids, friends and family are OK. Then I just want to run – go out, drive, anything but sit here! Flight or fight – from/against WHAT?

Maybe that’s why I like that fugue thingie…..

My Jesus Murphy!

+